Monday, October 30, 2006

You Can Not Outgive God

My Pastor says that a lot. Not that I am saying I am some big giver. In fact I usually feel I do not give enough. But I want to give. I want my heart to be right. I want to honor God with all I have.

I actually learned something at church this weekend. In the story of Elijah and the sacrifice after the 3 1/2 years of no rain, I thought he drenched his sacrifice with water to show up the followers of Baal and say after your god did nothing, mine will show up with fire even though all this wet stuff will be really hard to burn. I kinda looked at Elijah using water to mock the followers of Baal but he gave what was hard to give. There was lots of wood but there was not much water. He sacrificed what hurt to give not what was easy because he had so much excess. There was no pain in sacrificing the bull or the wood or the stones. It was the water that was precious and Elijah was generous with his sacrifice of water. Way cool!

I have an event coming up that I can give away bears at. In the past at events like this, I know some people will take anything that is free wether they need it or even want it. I have had people take my display items before and then go and take from every table in the room. I want to give freely and I do not want to not give to those who need because of the ones who dont. But I have been debating what to do because once you give to some, those who want free stuff will want their share too.

Each bear is just over $4 with tax and shipping so to give away 25 will cost me $100. Not an easy decision to make right before the extra cost of Christmas right around the corner. At the Fall Fest last night (that Kenneth and I volunteered to work), a woman came up to me. I kept her son when I worked nursery and we see each other around but I do not even know her name. She heard about AAU somehow and said she had something for me. She handed me $100 cash.

That's what I'm talking about baby.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

She got a boo boo

My 2 year old was running ahead of me today as we were leaving bible study and going to the van to leave. I tried to tell her to not run ahead of me, not run on the concrete and she was going the wrong way. She was just having fun and not even really being disobediant but I saw the danger. I tried to tell her to stop but she was not listening. She fell and scraped her knee bad.

As her mother, my heart hurt and my stomach turned when I saw how bad her little scrape was. I know it was not like she broke a bone or was diagnoised with some horrible diesease but I hurt for her none the less. It is one of those scrapes that will hurt every time your knee bends a little and when the bath water hits it and when your pants rub against it. It will take a while to heal and have a scab for a long time.

Why am I blogging about a scraped knee? Well, I kinda felt like God said to me, "How do you think I feel when your sin scrapes your knee? How do you think it affects Me when I try to warn you of the danger of the direction you are going, the speed which you are moving at and the surface you are treading on, but you are not listening because 'it is just a little harmless fun'? How do you think I feel when I have to pick you up and bandage your boo boo because you did not trust My objections? How do you think My heart hurts when I see my precious daughter in pain, minor as it may be?"


Today I experienced the Love of Christ, though it is so great I will never fully understand it (Eph 3:19). Thas what Im talkin bout baby.

Friday, October 13, 2006

This Little Piggy Went to the Zoo

Emery's first ever field trip was so great! So caiotic! So perfect! Adrian had the first trip to the zoo she remembers. She was amazed. There is just not much you can say to describe the wonder of a child's first experience with something fasinating. PRECIOUS.

At the end of the trip we went to the souvineer shop and I found these tiny little pigs. I asked Adrian if she wanted one and she said yes so I bought one. At the last minute I decided to buy 3 little piggies, one for each of my girls. It was funny because '3 little pigs'. Adrian was thrilled and was role playing with them and they were small enough to all fit in her chubby little fist. We were walking the same path out that we came in and I look down and see a 4th little piggy. It may seem weird to some, but I felt like it was a precious gift from God. He gave me a piggy for each of my girls. And right after a day when I cried to Him about missing my Rya. How sweet is that! That is what I am talking about, Jesus.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Self Control

Why is it so hard? Why, as a Christian do I lack self control on such a regular basis. I refuse to use my monthly cycles as an excuse to become unsaved but I sure act like I need hands laid on me every month. I got a good tip from that said to keep track of your period so you will be able to prepair yourself, emotionally, spiritually and physically. GREAT idea because I am usually caught off guard. So now I am keeping track. Of what? How mean I was to my family yesterday? Blech!

Now for some balance. I will not talk about how while in a dead sleep from taking medications my husband woke me up when he was awake to take Adrian to the bathroom where she peed on me. No sence in making myself cry this early in the day. ; )

I do NOT NOT NOT have jury duty today. Thank You Jesus! I also have been ministering to a mother who had a miscarriage at 9 weeks and is having a hard time. She keeps telling me how much she appreciated what I do with Angels Among Us. And get this, she is a nurse at Woman's. She has never heard of me. She wants to try and do something to change that. What an answered prayer!!!

And one more little thing. I am fitting back into SOME of my clothes and the big thing is, I am happy where I am. Now, thats what Im talkin about!

Sunday, October 08, 2006


I got out of jury duty!!! I was so anxious about it because I did not know what I would do with the girls and the thought of missing Em's first field trip was horrifing. Thank You JESUS!! I have been given the desire of my heart.

Avery's baptism has been cancelled so we are disappointed but we can get over that. I have just sent out invitations and called to order the cakes and we were just excited.

Church today was good. Look at a child from a 3rd world country, hear about any one day in their life and if you do not feel overwhelmed with gratitude let me know so I can pray for you. It is heart wrenching and makes our issues (missing a zoo field trip) seem petty and selfish.

The speaker did mention something I have been praying about. She said we are to tithe everything. I guess that means ministry money too. Now she also said a ministry should not accept a tithe from an individual because it should go to a church home. I recently got someone's tithe because they left their church home. I did not think much of it (outside of extreem gratitude) but now I wonder...

My exhibit at the convention went great. I almost did not do it because of the work involved but my confirmation came during church today. The message was titled You Reep What You Sow. It was about how serving, ministry, sowing is hard. It is never just 9-5, it is uphill all the way, it COST something. but it is right and it is God's will that we do what He has called us to do.

I gotta go do my bible study now since I get to go. God is so good! THATS what Im talking about baby.

Monday, October 02, 2006


I joined an email tip of the day thing called the generous wife ( and I got this great tip! I like to throw up little prayers every chance I get but it is usually related to my day. For example, I heard Emery coughing so I prayed for her. Kenneth does not require my attention as much throughout the day and when he does, it may not always be a good thing, HA! So my tip was, while doing laundry, pray for whoever's clothes I am folding. Love it!
Avery-Avery is as surefooted as a deer (Ps 18:33)
Emery-Always stay united with the Holy Spirit and bind her together with peace (Eph 4:3)
Adrian-She is like a hornet, driving out the enemies of God (Ex. 23:28, De. 7:20, Jos. 24:12)
Kenneth-He loves me like Christ loves the church (Eph 6:25)
And PLEASE Jesus, let me out of jury duty!! If I have to go I miss Em's first ever field trip. She will be so very sad. Me too!!! In the matchless name of Jesus I pray. Thas what Im talkin bout!