I need an Awakening. Tomorrow I am starting a 21 day fast with my church based on the Awakening book (& website linked in title) by Stovell Weems. I have attempted this before. I have never been that successful at fasting but I am also not a quitter by nature. A friend recently said to me something like 'I need to let go of the past & the pain. It has changed who I am'. I think pain SHOULD change who you are. As cleche' as it is, pain in your life will make you bitter or better. I have been bitter. I want to be better. I am hoping by fasting, I can refocus & move in 'better' direction.
I am at a job that I am mostly happy with. I am dealing with being a working mom. I am a little more stable financially. I hate a little less. But it could all be better.
When I have tried fasting in the past, I never could focus on God much because I was so consumed by the discomfort of my flesh. I would be grouchy & have no energy and never managed to function at a decent level. The book Awakening has really got me amped about this fast though because I feel a bit more prepared and a little less legalistic & much more expectant. I feel my faith has been strengthened & my unbelief has been helped. It was a good book. I hope it is a great fast that awakens my relationship with God. Here's to hope in 2011.
